drove 1.5 hours to jacyle island for the sherman. played fetch and ran a bit. very windy, a bit cold. hid behind a dune to watch the sky turn black while lauryn, ben, and sherman took a walk.
drove 1.5 hours back home.
stared at pictures for hours. some that i shouldn't have. i can't really remember why i decided to abandon a life i was mostly happy with. i guess i need to escape something/someone, but i don't think distance can possibly set this hurt free. now instead of missing one person i am missing my whole life.
ended the day with a wine and cheese hour (club crackers and cream cheese)
note to self: don't eat in bed while upset... cream cheese everywhere... sorry, mom.
things will get better soon.